Monday, September 20, 2010

Paths and Gateways

I love to take pictures of pathways, especially in the woods.  They are, of course, so symbolic of our journey through life.  And a fork in the road, a ditch, a rock, a puddle, a cliff, a fallen tree across the path...also symbolic of our journey.

Right now I'm traveling down a path that leads... well, somewhere.  I just have no idea where.  My day job lost it's grant funding and in 2 weeks time I'll be collecting unemployment again and trying to figure out what to do next.

I really would like to make the leap into trying this photography thing full time.  I have a lot to learn, but I think I also have a lot to offer.  I have a couple of projects in mind and am exploring the world of grant funding.  I don't know where any of this will lead.  But, I'm trying to clear the clutter from my mind and follow my heart.  It's the clutter clearing that seems to be the most difficult.  All those voices telling me to do different things!  Go here, don't go here, try this, and the ever popular "what if???"  It's enough to drive this poor girl insane!  (OK, no comments on that, please!)

I keep playing with vision boards and affirmations and visualizations and all that positive stuff.  And still I sit here frozen in fear.  Then of course, there's prayer, which comforting and powerful in ways I cannot fathom, has yet to lead me to that eureka moment of "Do THIS!!"  I want to see the gate, the goal, the entire map.  What I see instead is only the small piece of pathway I'm on and I have to just faithfully put one foot in front of the other and hope it leads to where it is I want to be.  And, of course, I don't know where that is yet, but I'm sure it will be somewhere good.

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